Hey there! Ever felt like a fish out of water in this topsy turvy, fast-paced old world? Have you ever wanted to just disappear in a flash and go experience new heights? Or maybe you are like me: from time to time I feel like literally NO one believes me unless they see the proof. It’s all I can do to keep my head above water as I try to hold my babies closer and trade my fiery words for reflection, so I can assure those who need to know, that I am ok.
I know this all sounds a little scary and bold for my normal style of writing post to post. However I am learning so much from the Lord lately, that I had to share a little of what He is teaching me. I have to tell myself that “His ways are not my ways, nor are my thoughts, His thoughts.” After all, in the end, it is the Lord who directs a man’s steps. We know He knows what He’s doing… Always. He is not puzzled by a surprise election, by evil doings, or even something catastrophic like the death of a parent or child, losing a job or finding yourself homeless, etc… He made the skies, flowers, and knows the stars each by their name. He is NEVER surprised by what happens to me day to day. To the contrary! As I draw closer and closer to His heart, as I lean into all that He is.. and when I simply can’t understand what is happening in a injustice I see, I must MUST choose to trust Him and lean harder into His arms.
Sounds great what? Who are you, you say… You must have it so great! Such an easy life! Actually though, that thought made me think of throwing up in my mouth a little, because it is so far from the truth! Honestly though, my medical history is very colorful since I was ten, in 2000. Basically, I went into a coma from a misdiagnosis in the summer. I should have and almost did die. But God saw fit to let me awaken after 6 days of a deep coma. I learned to use my limbs again, I learned to use my brain again, really, and to walk. This time period was most definitely harder for my young parents than for me. The road was rocky in grade school with lots of insomnia. Then when I was 15 had a mental breakdown, which most of you who have known me for a while may recall. It happened at a Rock the Universe Concert in Orlando: September 9-11, 2005. It was my first real encounter, as a 15 year old, to see evil in real form. So I was lost for 2 hours in the throngs of teenagers moshing and afterwards trying to find the exit, as I was totally and completely alone. It took me 6 months to recover, and initially no one knew how to help me.
But that is all the past, now. I am 26, married to a wonderful match for my passionate, loving sort of personality-Michael Frye! I have 2 boys, Michael and Mark, who will by 4 April 7! Wow! Where does the time go! We lived in Texas the first 18 months of our marriage, and the boys were born in Plano, Texas in April 10, 2013! The wonderful ministry we worked for there prayed and thought my needs for help with the new twins would be met better back home. Boy where they right! So that is where you find me now!
Time for me tonight draws to a close. It is time to rest, and get ready to sleep. But you must know by now that I serve a God, not of space or time, but a God who ALWAYS, everyday understands my every need. When I was very sick this past year, September to November, many times I saw His face… Get this, in the faces of the other patients at the various hospitals! People are SO needy of hope and answers! “You offered me something to drink, you visited me in prison, you invited me in.” Remember Jesus saying this to His disciples? “But Lord, when did we do these things? We don’t remember seeing you?” Then Jesus said “If you do these things for the least of these, you do it for Me.” (Please forgive me, I don’t have a Bible in front to quote exactly, but I hope I quoted it correctly).
You see? Jesus made each and every one of us. He loves us each with a crazy mad love and wants to not only save us from falling, but walk beside me every day, lighting my path one step at a time. He is glorious! He is patient and loving, He never gives up on His children. Believe it right now! It is true. Life is a slippery slope! It can be so confusing to determine motives, and to learn how to live with purpose and meaning in this cruel world. But remember, people are thirsty for hope! Smile today, ok? Knowing that Jesus wants to use you to your full potential, right now, for His glory! I love you all. Thank you for reading. I hope you enjoyed it, and that you can truly let Jesus walk beside you today, and be the light to your path.
Thanks for reading!
Becky Frye